I saw the neurosurgeon on the 16th and he said an unwise doctor would be eager to immediately open me up and put in rods, pins, and plates. He said that he isn't an unwise doctor. His advice is to increase my Calcium and Vitamin D, be wise with my back, wean off the pain killers/narcotics, and it should heal itself. In six months, check back with him.
Yay! No surgery. That's good. However, mixed in with the low back aches, along comes the tingling and numbness from the neuropathy.
Why my rambling lament? Well, living on my own and single and stuff, stuff does not get done around the apartment that needs to b/c I'm either too sore, or too tuckered from the aches to want to do any thing but lay on the couch with my legs propped up. And the longer the stuff does not get done, the more cranky I get with myself. The other lament/whine is purposing to be positive when others who do have people to help them, give greater distress and lament for their aches. See, I told you I was going to be rambling. Thanks for listening, Abba Father!
Lord help me, please. I simply just am asking for comfort or something. To buck up and deal with it. But I don't want to buck up. But if I don't, then nothing gets done. And it's just safer to unload here b/c I know I won't have someone staring back at me to let me know that someone else, or they themselves, has it worse. It just feels good to unload somewhere where I think someone might pass this along to Papa God, and to help me keep on continuing to be praying to Him through the good days and the days when the clouds are a tad bit darker.
